Light at the End of the Tunnel

Just completed 4 weeks out of 7. There's still so much left to do, but at least it feels like if I've survived this long, it can only get better, not worse -- right?

Every day is such a challenge, on so many different levels -- personally, professionally, physically, emotionally. The growth curve is huge -- and like every film I've done in the past, I know I'm going to come out a stronger, smarter individual, with a plethora of newly gained knowledge. I'm never going to remember the stress, the minute-to-minute chaos, the dread I feel at certain times each day (like when there's a phone call you REALLY don't want to take, but of course they're going to call you, over & over again).

I often feel down about myself, because it's such a thankless job. At the end of the day, you may have resolved 10 issues, but there are still another 15 that have come up, of which 5 are just unavoidable, and you just have to bear the brunt of it.

But the other day, speaking to my friend Smriti made me feel soooo much better about myself. She's a producer & writer -- I can't imagine why anyone would want to produce, but that's a whole different story. She recently directed a short film, and was giving accolades to being a director, because she found it to be a huge challenge -- and it made her realize how important the experience was for her as a producer to see the other side of it. Somehow, even though I always knew that in the back of my mind, it just made me feel much better to hear it from someone in a similar position as me. That even though I may not be cut out to produce, it's an important skill for me to at least learn (even if I don't put it into practice) bc it'll only help me on the other side, as a director.

Anyway -- that was my two cents on it. 3 weeks left!!!