5 steps

Yesterday Puchku was so excited to see me in the afternoon that he didn't revert to crawling but walked over to me - mumma was so proud. Of course mumma is proud of everything :)

Checklist: what not to feed baby

After struggling to put Puchku to sleep for 2 hrs (literally) he finally revealed what the issue was by throwing up all over me (nailed himself n the carpet too, n a little on our bed). Hummus can now be added to the list of foods that he can't eat, which is odd bc he ate the same hummus last week n was just fine. Baba ganoush doesn't suit him either. And any food w heavy masalas. Basically, he has a really sensitive stomach, like his baba.

List of approved spices:
Salt
Turmeric
Cumin

No-no's:
Baba Ganoush
Hummus
Garam masala
Mirchi
Anything else

First Day away from baby

Did a quick day trip to LA for 'Upaj' work, was gone for a total of 10 hours. It was a glimpse into my old life - where it was just me, jet setting, and only having to worry abt myself. I can't even begin to tell you how much I enjoyed it. Of course coming back didn't make me sad or anything (even tho Pupa was asleep and so today becomes the first day in a long time he hasn't seen me all day) but it made me feel almost guilty that I was missing my old life so much. I also had this epiphany that things had really changed bc if I had missed my flight home, in the past it wouldn't have mattered. It would just cause inconvenience maybe and money. Now that was not an option - Puchku would be really unhappy and cranky they the night without me there and it would be truly difficult. And so life changes!
Anyway, the first overnight trip will be interesting. I cant imagine NOT waking up every 2-3 hrs, and actually sleeping the night thru? Naaah, that's too weird.

Thanksgiving weekend

Talk abt non-stop vacation and fun. Much needed too. Now looking forward to getting back into a serious practice regime and finishing UPAJ documentary!
I realized that even though I don't particularly enjoy reading my old posts abt Puchku right now bc they seem so rushed and unemotional, but it is till good to go back to landmark times for Puchku. Someone asked me when he started saying Mumma and Baba and I realized I didn't remember. So if nothing else, just to note down dates of when he starts doing new stuff.
On that note, he started doing "High Five" this weekend. And he claps and gets so excited abt it bc we cheer so much!

Long gap

Wow, it's been forever since I last wrote. Freakin blogger even has a totally new look, and I have no idea how to navigate through it all. Anyway, life has been crazy & busy, but it's all good. Puchku is in a totally fun, interactive stage. I feel like 6 months is like a take-off point -- he seems to be growing on a daily basis. I mean, I see him everyday, and he still looks like he's getting big even to me! And he's showing so much more personality every day. We still struggle with the sleeping thing, but I've decided not to do the 'cry it out' bit. I'll live with him waking up 1-2 times a night instead. It's really not that bad. The last couple of days he's been going to bed early -- between 8:30 - 9pm, which is really strange bc until last week he was sleeping between 11-12. I like it though -- me and King get some time to ourselves in the evening. King better start coming home before 9pm though if he wants to see his son at all :-/
Next week we will try a new nanny. Fingers crossed that it works out! And then I can begin some semblance of what our 'normal' life will be like in SF!

Getting there

Just enjoyed a great evening hanging out w my son.... Came back from work not feeling overwhelmed and exhausted and made it a point to put away the phone n just hang out w Puchku. We had a 'picnic' in the backyard - I've been doing this a lot lately- I spread a sheet on the lawn and we hang out in mom n dads beautiful yard... And bc it's a picnic, there's gotta be food... So I feed him in the outdoors. It's fun :)

Slowing down ... slowly

So, I didn't really slow down that much. I'm trying, but it's not really happening. I extricated myself from a couple of things, but that still wasn't enough. I still feel like I'm running around in circles, trying to get things done, but doing justice to none of them. I feel like there are three choices:

a) be a stay-at-home mom and abandon career -- then you'll finally feel like you're doing justice to being a mom
b) have an ambitious career woman -- hire a full-time nanny, and feel like you're doing justice to your career and continuing to move forward there
c) juggle both -- work from home at 1/4 the capacity that you would normally accomplish stuff in, take baby occasionally to work stuff, and hope people don't mind; leaving baby occasionally at home and feeling guilty about it when you do.

I chose Option C, which is the 'half-assing everything' option.